Wed, Dec 31st 1969, 6:00 pm

5-24-08- I wrote earlier this week about the mass I found in my breast, and it has been so stressful not knowing one way or the other. I found out that it is a tumor, and it is likely to be benign. I will have to have surgery soon. So that is it. WOW! I cannot believe it. I've been trying to figure out why God has set this task before me. I cannot think of a more inconvenient time for this to happen! LOL! I know it sounds surprizing that I'm humorous in all of this, but what choice do I have? I must have that faith that I proclaim to all the world. I feel fine. God has been sending people to be there and pray for me. I feel an outpouring of love. How can a person not have peace with all that goodness around them? I have been training like crazy, and been strict with my dieting, strict. And my body is responding, quite well-with all things considered. I still plan to go to Chicago; I want to minister and see Debra. I want to live and not have any regrets.

I've had time to think about the important things, and I have had the opportunity to go in a negative place with all this, but I haven't stayed there. Like my former Pastor used to say, "It's okay to go through hell but don't stay there, go through it." I talked to my spiritual mother last night and she was very encouraging, and we talked for a while then she prayed for me. I needed to hear her voice.

The enemy has been pulling out all the stops to try to hurt me, but when it all boils down to it, a person has to decide what direction they want their life to go. God won't even decide that for you. I choose life, love, peace, joy, a good report, happiness, excitement, growth, good charactor, and all the righteous tributes I think of.

I've been going through other annoyances with one particular person but the only thing I feel for her is pity. She cannot stop God, no one can. And all the effort on the earth, above or below won't change the truth. My spiritual mother said to me that the truth doesn't need ANY defense; it stands alone. But sometimes people are just plain sick. I will pray if God tells me to, but for me, all this wanna be drama is BENEATH me. I am royality, a princess of the Highest King. And royality doesn't roll around in a pig pen with pigs. Enough.

I'm going to continue to surround myself with people who love me and will be there for me when times are good and bad. Thanks for reading.

Princess of God, Aketa