Wed, Dec 31st 1969, 6:00 pm

7-11-08- I sitting here in my office, and I've been thinking about the week. It hasn't been that great. I've been thinking that there might be a pattern to all this. I think the enemy is constantly trying to get God's people to away from their goals. And whether you realize is or not you can help of hurt the plans of God in your life. I have a friend that had a disturbing dream the other night. He dreamed that people who where close to me pulled me off the path of my destiny. I was bothersome because it caused division in my marriage, and the people were doing really bad stuff. So he called as soon as he got up. And when he told me I became concerned about the people in my life. I asked the Lord and He revealed to me who they were. Considering how bad this week has been going I'm not surprized. I'm just questioning my sense of discernment these days. Is it possible for me to have close people in my life or am I always going to have to keep my guard up and arms up and locked keeping people away. I have the desire to have meaningful relationships with authentic people. I seem to keep stumbling on unauthentic people who have REALLY BAD problems (beyond anything I can do). So I guess I'm back to square one. Oh well. I guess you can tell I'm grieving. I'm not embarrassed about being genuine and loving people; I'm just sad about what could have been and how I wished things would have turned out. That's all for now. I need to protect my heart.

Sheltered by the Most High, Aketa