Mon, Aug 4th 2008, 4:10 pm

7-23-08- I just got done with orientation at the hospital for two days, and I can honestly say I have never felt more excited, appreciated, and welcomed then I have these past few days. The president of the hospital actually came to our orientation to talk and meet with us for about an hour! Also many of the Department Administrators came over to talk to us as well. They all ranged from information systems to the chaplaincy. I met some really interesting people that I hope to see again.

Now that I've completed my in-processing, I can focus on the ministry. I can honestly say I haven't had much time to think about it from everything that has kept me busy. I'm nervous and excited. I accept all that God has for me, even if that means I don't crack into the top five. God knows and He has me on His schedule. He continually tells me that He has me where He wants me. I have been experiencing some anxiety about how well I will place because I became close with overly competitive people. The amount of exposure has had a negative effect on my self-esteem. I'm humble and I know that, but I wonder how do you not allow the enemy to try to place fear, doubt in your heart? The only thing I can think of is to pray and focus on God and what He is doing, not me. You see, people who are self centered make competition and life about them. They are greedy and always strive to be better than someone else or try to hold them down. I want to cultivate God centeredness (If that is even a word.)

You see, if I look up in every situation, ask the Holy Spirit to use me to glorify God, and I make my business His business, and don't concern myself with anything else, then my purpose, my will, will change. God's Will, will be my will. So I simply say this before I leave.........

"Our Father, who is in Heaven. How great is your name! Your kingdom come! Your WILL be done, here on earth as it is in Heaven. I love you DADDY!"

That is my prayer,  Aketa