Wed, Oct 22nd 2008, 3:28 pm

10-22-08 I am sitting here in Minneapolis on a business trip for my firm. I cannot believe how far God has taken me. This kind of feeling can only come from a person who has been in some really low places in their life. I can honestly say I feel butterflies right now. I have been full steam ahead at my new career at the hospital. I'm attending some training for one of their programs. We are in a fabulous hotel, and we are going to get ready to go to the Mall of America! YIPPEE! I'm taking pictures and will have them ready when I get back.

I've been trying to listen to God's voice and direction. I think He is doing a great job at keeping me together. James and I are spending more time together. I realize what is really important. My goals are changing. I'm realizing what true joy really is. I've been reading a book about how to hear from God. I'm on a quest to deepen my personal relationship with my Heavenly Father. I'm learning that all my doubt about where He wants me is useless. He knows I love Him and desire to be obediant to Him. If I do that, my path is already set by Him. I think I'm secretly (not anymore!lol!) scared that all this joy will end and reality will set in. But what is crazy is that this IS reality, which tells me that God's plans are so much better that mine!

Everything here is beautiful! I cannot believe it all. I think I will spend some time reflecting on my life, all my struggles, triumphs, tragedies, everything. I'm begining to see a reaccuring theme, and that is His hand. He has had so much input in my life that it impossible to deny Him. If you have any doubt, try to have faith. He is much bigger than you think, and He has more input than you realize. Let Him guide you into something you would have never dreamed you can be! I DID!

Guided by His hand, aketa